Mahabharata 2.43: tricatvāriṃśo'dhyāyaḥ

2.43.1

vaiśaṃpāyana uvāca |
vasanduryodhanastasyāṃ sabhāyāṃ bharatarṣabha |
śanairdadarśa tāṃ sarvāṃ sabhāṃ śakuninā saha || 1 ||

Vaisampayana said,--"That bull among men, Duryodhana, continued to dwell in that, assembly house (of the Pandavas). And with Sakuni, the Kuru prince slowly examined the whole of that mansion, and the Kuru prince beheld in it many celestial designs, which he had never seen before in the city called after the elephant (Hastinapore). And one day king Duryodhana in going round that mansion came upon a crystal surface. And the king, from ignorance, mistaking it for a pool of water, drew up his clothes. And afterwards finding out his mistake the king wandered about the mansion in great sorrow. And sometime after, the king, mistaking a lake of crystal water adorned with lotuses of crystal petals for land, fell into it with all his clothes on. Beholding Duryodhana fallen into the lake, the mighty Bhima laughed aloud as also the menials of the palace. And the servants, at the command of the king, soon brought him dry and handsome clothes. Beholding the plight of Duryodhana, the mighty Bhima and Arjuna and both the twins--all laughed aloud. Being unused to putting up with insults, Duryodhana could not bear that laugh of theirs. Concealing his emotions he even did not cast his looks on them. And beholding the monarch once more draw up his clothes to cross a piece of dry land which he had mistaken for water, they all laughed again. And the king sometime after mistook a closed door made of crystal as open. And as he was about to pass through it his head struck against it, and he stood with his brain reeling. And mistaking as closed another door made of crystal that was really open, the king in attempting to open it with stretched hands, tumbled down. And coming upon another door that was really open, the king thinking it as closed, went away from it. And, O monarch, king Duryodhana beholding that vast wealth in the Rajasuya sacrifice and having become the victim of those numerous errors within the assembly house at last returned, with the leave of the Pandavas, to Hastinapore.

2.43.2

tasyāṃ divyānabhiprāyāndadarśa kurunandanaḥ |
na dṛṣṭapūrvā ye tena nagare nāgasāhvaye || 2 ||

2.43.3

sa kadācitsabhāmadhye dhārtarāṣṭro mahīpatiḥ |
sphāṭikaṃ talamāsādya jalamityabhiśaṅkayā || 3 ||

2.43.4

svavastrotkarṣaṇaṃ rājā kṛtavānbuddhimohitaḥ |
durmanā vimukhaścaiva paricakrāma tāṃ sabhām || 4 ||

2.43.5

tataḥ sphāṭikatoyāṃ vai sphāṭikāmbujaśobhitām |
vāpīṃ matvā sthalamiti savāsāḥ prāpatajjale || 5 ||

2.43.6

jale nipatitaṃ dṛṣṭvā kiṃkarā jahasurbhṛśam |
vāsāṃsi ca śubhānyasmai pradadū rājaśāsanāt || 6 ||

2.43.7

tathāgataṃ tu taṃ dṛṣṭvā bhīmaseno mahābalaḥ |
arjunaśca yamau cobhau sarve te prāhasaṃstadā || 7 ||

2.43.8

nāmarṣayattatasteṣāmavahāsamamarṣaṇaḥ |
ākāraṃ rakṣamāṇastu na sa tānsamudaikṣata || 8 ||

2.43.9

punarvasanamutkṣipya pratariṣyanniva sthalam |
āruroha tataḥ sarve jahasuste punarjanāḥ || 9 ||

2.43.10

dvāraṃ ca vivṛtākāraṃ lalāṭena samāhanat |
saṃvṛtaṃ ceti manvāno dvāradeśādupāramat || 10 ||

2.43.11

evaṃ pralambhānvividhānprāpya tatra viśāṃ pate |
pāṇḍaveyābhyanujñātastato duryodhano nṛpaḥ || 11 ||

2.43.12

aprahṛṣṭena manasā rājasūye mahākratau |
prekṣya tāmadbhutāmṛddhiṃ jagāma gajasāhvayam || 12 ||

2.43.13

pāṇḍavaśrīprataptasya dhyānaglānasya gacchataḥ |
duryodhanasya nṛpateḥ pāpā matirajāyata || 13 ||

And the heart of king Duryodhana, afflicted at sight of the prosperity of the Pandavas, became inclined to sin, as he proceeded towards his city reflecting on all he had seen and suffered. And beholding the Pandavas happy and all the kings of the earth paying homage to them, as also everybody, young and old, engaged in doing good unto them, and reflecting also on the splendour and prosperity of the illustrious sons of Pandu, Duryodhana, the son of Dhritarashtra, became pale. In proceeding (to his city)

2.43.14

pārthānsumanaso dṛṣṭvā pārthivāṃśca vaśānugān |
kṛtsnaṃ cāpi hitaṃ lokamākumāraṃ kurūdvaha || 14 ||

2.43.15

mahimānaṃ paraṃ cāpi pāṇḍavānāṃ mahātmanām |
duryodhano dhārtarāṣṭro vivarṇaḥ samapadyata || 15 ||

2.43.16

sa tu gacchannanekāgraḥ sabhāmevānucintayan |
śriyaṃ ca tāmanupamāṃ dharmarājasya dhīmataḥ || 16 ||

with an efflicted heart, the prince thought of nothing else but that assembly house and that unrivalled prosperity of the wise Yudhishthira. And Duryodhana, the son of Dhritarashtra, was so taken up with his thoughts then that he spoke not a word to Suvala's son even though the latter addressed him repeatedly. And Sakuni, beholding him absent-minded, said,--'O Duryodhana, why art thou proceeding thus'?

2.43.17

pramatto dhṛtarāṣṭrasya putro duryodhanastadā |
nābhyabhāṣatsubalajaṃ bhāṣamāṇaṃ punaḥ punaḥ || 17 ||

2.43.18

anekāgraṃ tu taṃ dṛṣṭvā śakuniḥ pratyabhāṣata |
duryodhana kutomūlaṃ niḥśvasanniva gacchasi || 18 ||

2.43.19

duryodhana uvāca |
dṛṣṭvemāṃ pṛthivīṃ kṛtsnāṃ yudhiṣṭhiravaśānugām |
jitāmastrapratāpena śvetāśvasya mahātmanaḥ || 19 ||

"Duryodhana replied,--O uncle, beholding this whole earth owning the sway of Yudhishthira in consequence of the might of the illustrious Arjuna's weapons and beholding also that sacrifice of the son of Pritha like unto the sacrifice of Sakra himself of great glory among the celestials, I, being filled with jealousy and burning day and night, am being dried up like a shallow tank in the summer season. Behold, when Sisupala was slain by the chief of the Satwatas, there was no man to take the side of Sisupala. Consumed by the fire of the Pandava, they all forgave that offence; otherwise who is there that could forgive it? That highly improper act of grave consequence done by Vasudeva succeeded in consequence of the power of the illustrious son of Pandu. And so many monarchs also brought with them various kinds of wealth for king Yudhishthira, the son of Kunti, like tribute-paying Vaisyas! Beholding Yudhishthira's prosperity of such splendour, my heart burneth, efflicted with jealously, although it behoveth me not to be jealous.'

2.43.20

taṃ ca yajñaṃ tathābhūtaṃ dṛṣṭvā pārthasya mātula |
yathā śakrasya deveṣu tathābhūtaṃ mahādyute || 20 ||

2.43.21

amarṣeṇa susaṃpūrṇo dahyamāno divāniśam |
śuciśukrāgame kāle śuṣye toyamivālpakam || 21 ||

2.43.22

paśya sātvatamukhyena śiśupālaṃ nipātitam |
na ca tatra pumānāsītkaścittasya padānugaḥ || 22 ||

2.43.23

dahyamānā hi rājānaḥ pāṇḍavotthena vahninā |
kṣāntavanto'parādhaṃ taṃ ko hi taṃ kṣantumarhati || 23 ||

2.43.24

vāsudevena tatkarma tathāyuktaṃ mahatkṛtam |
siddhaṃ ca pāṇḍaveyānāṃ pratāpena mahātmanām || 24 ||

2.43.25

tathā hi ratnānyādāya vividhāni nṛpā nṛpam |
upatiṣṭhanti kaunteyaṃ vaiśyā iva karapradāḥ || 25 ||

2.43.26

śriyaṃ tathāvidhāṃ dṛṣṭvā jvalantīmiva pāṇḍave |
amarṣavaśamāpanno dahye'hamatathocitaḥ || 26 ||

2.43.27

vahnimeva pravekṣyāmi bhakṣayiṣyāmi vā viṣam |
apo vāpi pravekṣyāmi na hi śakṣyāmi jīvitum || 27 ||

"Having reflected in this way, Duryodhana, as if burnt by fire, addressed the king of Gandhara again and said,--'I shall throw myself upon a flaming fire or swallow poison or drown myself in water. I cannot live. What man is there in the world possessed of vigour who can bear to see his foes in the enjoyment of prosperity and himself in destitution? Therefore I who bear to see that accession of prosperity and fortune (in my foes) am neither a woman nor one that is not a woman, neither also a man nor one that is not a man. Beholding their sovereignty over the world and vast affluence, as also that sacrifice, who is there like me that would not smart under all that? Alone I am incapable of acquiring such royal prosperity; nor do I behold allies that could help me in the matter. It is for this that I am thinking of self-destruction. Beholding that great and serene prosperity of the son of Kunti, I regard Fate as supreme and exertions fruitless. O son of Suvala, formerly I strove to compass his destruction. But baffling all my efforts he hath grown in prosperity even like the lotus from within a pool of water. It is for this that I regard Fate as supreme and exertions fruitless. Behold, the sons of Dhritarashtra are decaying and the sons of Pritha are growing day by day. Beholding that prosperity of the Pandavas, and that assembly house of theirs, and those menials laughing at me, my heart burneth as if it were on fire. Therefore, O uncle, know me now as deeply grieved and filled with jealousy, and speak of it to Dhritarashtra.

2.43.28

ko hi nāma pumām̐lloke marṣayiṣyati sattvavān |
sapatnānṛdhyato dṛṣṭvā hānimātmana eva ca || 28 ||

2.43.29

so'haṃ na strī na cāpyastrī na pumānnāpumānapi |
yo'haṃ tāṃ marṣayāmyadya tādṛśīṃ śriyamāgatām || 29 ||

2.43.30

īśvaratvaṃ pṛthivyāśca vasumattāṃ ca tādṛśīm |
yajñaṃ ca tādṛśaṃ dṛṣṭvā mādṛśaḥ ko na saṃjvaret || 30 ||

2.43.31

aśaktaścaika evāhaṃ tāmāhartuṃ nṛpaśriyam |
sahāyāṃśca na paśyāmi tena mṛtyuṃ vicintaye || 31 ||

2.43.32

daivameva paraṃ manye pauruṣaṃ tu nirarthakam |
dṛṣṭvā kuntīsute śubhrāṃ śriyaṃ tāmāhṛtāṃ tathā || 32 ||

2.43.33

kṛto yatno mayā pūrvaṃ vināśe tasya saubala |
tacca sarvamatikramya sa vṛddho'psviva paṅkajam || 33 ||

2.43.34

tena daivaṃ paraṃ manye pauruṣaṃ tu nirarthakam |
dhārtarāṣṭrā hi hīyante pārthā vardhanti nityaśaḥ || 34 ||

2.43.35

so'haṃ śriyaṃ ca tāṃ dṛṣṭvā sabhāṃ tāṃ ca tathāvidhām |
rakṣibhiścāvahāsaṃ taṃ paritapye yathāgninā || 35 ||

2.43.36

sa māmabhyanujānīhi mātulādya suduḥkhitam |
amarṣaṃ ca samāviṣṭaṃ dhṛtarāṣṭre nivedaya || 36 ||