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mahatāṃ rājñāmapi prāṇān eṣa mūṣaka iva mahārhaṃ vastu pratyakṣam‌apratyakṣaṃ vā mūṣati | ajagara iva prāṇino dūrānnigalati²| kāmaya̍māno'pi satīṃ gatiṃ kāmayamāno nā nāvalokyate | kaḥ carācareṣu sudṛḍhagrahādasya palāyi̍tuṃ kṣama̍te | ko vemaṃ kaśca nāyaṃ ja̍gṛhe | tathāpi jīva̍n naraḥ sarvaṃdurāśāsenāṃ rjayati | adhruvasyavi sarvasminnasmin jagati vividhavastujātamātmatvabhāvanayā meha̍te | nātmano'dhrauvyaṃ ¹0saṃmbhate iti niścintaḥ sanelośīrādivāsitaṃ, sajjanacittavatsvacchaṃ, payo rasādikaṃ vā dha̍ya̍ti | vividhāmodavahaṃ vastu ji̍ighra̍ti | nānādṛśyajātaṃ paśyati | śrutimadhuraśabdaṃ ¹3śṛṇoti| sparśasukhadāyi ca vastu spṛśati | madhurāmlalavaṇādiṣaḍrasaviśiṣṭamāsvādyam āsvā̍da̍te | svārjitayogakṣemāya praya̍ta̍te | ato bhagavatsamīhite'smin vyatikare bhavatāpi na visma̍rya̍mānena bhuvelimam¹| evamāśvāsyamāno vividhājñākaśāghātairmanoratharathaṃ vāhayan taduddhopagamane matimakārṣam | evaṃ vividhasadguṇopacitto rājapriyo'pi potārūḍho'haṃ tasmāt aca̍la̍m | kintu mārge'kasmāddhoreṇa vāridataskareṇākrānto viruddhena balinā vāyunā vidhinā ca preryamāṇaḥ saparijanadhanastatpoto'rṇave nyamāṅkṣīditi kāṣṭhaphalakamekamāśritya śanaiśśanairahaṃ kallolavellitaiḥ salilanidhipulinama̍la̍psi | tatra sthitaśca duḥkhārto daivaṃ nindan²⁰ taṭopāntapatitamaṣṭāpadāṅgulīkamavāpya tadvikrayopalabdhena dhanena taṭanikaṭagrāme'śanasāmagrīṃ vinimisya²¹ krītavastrayugalo manārivagatādhivivāhaklamo'bhavam | kṣaṇaṃ ca tatra viśramya dayitāvirahītastato dṛṣṭiṃ vikṣipan sikatāsambhṛtāyāṃ bhuvi vicarannekatra vanyaveṣāmapyatiśobhamānāṃ kanyāmekāmālokiṣi²²| api mama bhāgyena saiveyaṃ bhavediti cintayatā, spandamānena tadā vāmetareṇākṣṇā vijñāpitaśubhodarkeṇa 'mayā tanvi, prāsādavāsārhā'pi kā tvamaraṇye'tra vicaraiṃsīti' pṛṣṭā | kintu na sā kiñcid aśa̍ca̍ta