寺沙門玄奘上表記 1.82

1.82

沙門玄奘言。玄奘庸虛。幸參梵侶。貞觀之日。早沐殊私。永徽以來。極叨恩遇。顧循菲劣。每用慚負。自奉詔翻譯一十五年。夙夜匪遑。思力疲盡。行年六十。又嬰風疹。心緒迷謬。非復平常。朽疾相仍。前塗詎幾。今既不任專譯。豈宜濫竊鴻恩。見在翻經等僧並乞停廢。請將一二弟子移住玉華。時翻小經。兼得念誦。上資國慶。下畢餘年。并乞衛士五人依舊防守。庶荷宸造免其𬿏戾。無任懇至。謹詣闕奉表以聞。輕觸威嚴。伏深戰懼。謹言。

The śramaṇa Xuanzang says: Xuanzang is mediocre and hollow, yet had the fortune to join the ranks of fellow monks. During the Zhenguan era, I was early bathed in exceptional favor; since the Yonghui era, I have received the utmost imperial bounty. Reflecting upon my meager abilities, I am constantly ashamed and deficient. Since receiving the imperial decree to translate scriptures fifteen years ago, I have had no leisure day or night, and my mental and physical strength are completely exhausted. Now aged sixty, I have also contracted rheumatism; my mind is bewildered and erratic, no longer normal. Decay and illness succeed one another; how much of the forward road can remain? Since I am now incapable of devoting myself to translation, how can I improperly presume upon such vast grace? I beg that the monks currently engaged in translation and other duties be permitted to halt their work. I request permission to take one or two disciples to move and reside at Yuhua Temple, where I may occasionally translate small sūtras and also engage in recitation, thereby supporting the prosperity of the state from above, and finishing out my remaining years below. Furthermore, I request five guards to protect me as before, hoping to bear the imperial benevolence and be spared calamity and illness. Unable to contain my utmost sincerity, I reverently present this memorial to the court for Your consideration. Intruding upon the imperial majesty, I am deeply terrified. Respectfully stated.