代宗朝贈司空大辨正廣智三藏和上表制集 4.36

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沙門不空言。不空幼事先師。已過二紀。早承天澤。三十餘年演瑜伽法門。奉累聖之恩眄。自從　陛下臨御殊私轉深。賜黃閣以宴居。降　紫微而問道。積恩重疊。日月相繼。雖復精懇。豈酬萬一。而露電難駐。蒲柳易衰。一從伏枕。自春往夏　陛下深𭿅。存問再三。中使名醫相望道路。但以膏肓之病雖針藥而難生。生滅之質寧戀惜而能固。忽從昨夜已來。頓覺氣力彌惙身非己有。瞬息掩掩。心神寖微。違謝　聖朝。不任戀慕。不空今者年過中壽。未為夭逝。但以往時越度南海。周遊五天。尋其未聞。習其未解。所得金剛頂瑜伽十萬頌諸部真言及經論等五十餘萬頌。冀總翻譯少答國恩。何夙願之未終。忽生涯之已盡。此不空所以為恨也。伏惟　陛下降諸佛之慈惠。下從人之所願。不空先進大聖文殊佛剎經。聖情尋許頒示中外。伏願哀愍念臨終之一言。冀福皇家。滋吉祥之萬劫。實為僧人。生死榮幸。五鈷金剛鈴杵先師所傳并銀盤子菩提子及水精念珠并合子並謹隨表進奉。臨紙涕泣悲淚交流。永辭聖代。不勝戀慕之至。謹附監使李憲誠奉表陳辭以聞。沙門不空誠悲誠戀謹言。

The śramaṇa Amoghavajra states: Amoghavajra served his late teacher in youth, over two twelve-year cycles ago. Having received heavenly favor early on, for over thirty years I have expounded the Yoga Dharma gate and received the gracious consideration of successive sagely monarchs. Since Your Majesty ascended the throne, exceptional benevolence has grown ever deeper, granting me the yellow pavilion to reside in and descending from the purple palace to inquire about the Dao. Favours have accumulated repeatedly, day after day and month after month. Though I exerted my sincere devotion, how could I repay one ten-thousandth of it? But dew and lightning are hard to halt; willows easily wither. Ever since I took to my bed, from spring to summer, Your Majesty has been deeply concerned, inquiring after me repeatedly, with inner envoys and famous physicians seeing each other on the roads. Yet when an illness reaches the vitals, even acupuncture and medicine can hardly restore life; how could a mortal body subject to arising and ceasing be made firm by attachment and longing? Suddenly since last night, I felt my strength abruptly fail, and my body seemed no longer mine; my breath gasped from moment to moment, and my consciousness gradually grew faint. Parting forever from the Sacred Court, I cannot bear my longing and devotion. Amoghavajra has now passed beyond middle age, so this is not a premature death. Only, in the past I crossed the southern seas and travelled through the Five Indias, seeking what had not been heard and learning what had not been understood; I obtained one hundred thousand verses of the Vajraśekhara Yoga, dhāraṇīs of various divisions, and over five hundred thousand verses of scriptures and treatises. I hoped to translate them all to make a small repayment to the nation's favour. Why has my lifelong wish not been completed while my life has suddenly run out? This is what Amoghavajra regrets. I humbly pray that Your Majesty descend the compassionate benefit of the buddhas and deign to fulfill the wishes of men below. Amoghavajra previously submitted the Sūtra of the Buddha-Realm of the Great Holy Mañjuśrī; Your Sagely Mind then permitted its dissemination within and outside [the court]. I humbly pray you take pity and remember my deathbed words, in the hope of bringing blessing to the imperial house and multiplying auspiciousness for myriad kalpas. This would truly be the glory of a monk in life and in death. The five-pronged vajra bell and pestle transmitted from my late master, along with a silver dish, bodhi seeds, a crystal rosary, and a box, are all respectfully presented along with this memorial. Facing the paper, my tears flow in grief. Parting forever from the sagely era, I am overwhelmed with longing. Respectfully, through the Supervisory Envoy Li Xiancheng, I present this memorial to express my farewell and submit it for hearing. The śramaṇa Amoghavajra, in sincere sorrow and sincere devotion, respectfully speaks.