Gopalacampu 1.12.96

1.12.96

[57] tad evaṃ śokena harṣeṇa kālam ajānati vraja-loke rajanir ajanīti tatraiva kṣut-tṛṣṇāti-krami-kṛṣṇātikrama-khedena kṛśatāṃ gatāḥ pratyūṣaṃ yāvad ūṣuḥ | tatra ca sarvām eva śarvarīṃ vrajorvīśa-patnī sapatna-śaṅkayā sutam aṅkata eva niveśayantī paramāveśena muhur api tan-mukha-nirīkṣaṇa-sukha-sakṣaṇāpi tad-vṛtta-smaraṇena tasmād vilakṣaṇā prabhātam āsasāda | hanta hanta kṣudvantaṃ tam api gavāṃ dugdham api dugdhaṃ vidhāya na pāyayāmāsa, satyaṃ sarvam atratyaṃ viṣa-sakalaṅkam iti śaṅkayā |

Thus, while the people of Vraja were unaware of the time due to their sorrow and joy, night fell, and they remained right there until dawn, emaciated by the distress over Kṛṣṇa's absence which had surpassed hunger and thirst. And there, throughout the whole night, the queen of the lord of Vraja, keeping her son right on her lap out of fear of an enemy, though experiencing moments of happiness gazing repeatedly at his face with great absorption, became unsettled from that due to the remembrance of that ordeal, and reached the dawn. Alas, alas, though he was hungry, she did not even have the cows milked and let him drink milk, out of fear that "Truly, everything here is tainted with poison!"