Nagananda 1.19

1.19

ekkato guruvaaṇaṃ aṇṇato daiadaṃsaṇasuhāiṃ /
gamaṇāgamaṇādhirūḍhaṃ ajja bi dolaedi me hiaaṃ //
ekato guruvacanamanyato dayitadarśanasukhāni /
gamanāgamanādhirūḍhamadyāpi dolāyate me hṛdayam //

Malayavatí.
As the “Guru" orders. (To herself.) On the one side the orders of the "Guru," on the other the pleasure of the sight of the dear one. Thus my heart swings me to and fro, perched on a see-saw of going and not going.