Bhagavatapurana 1.6.20

1.6.20

didṛkṣustadahaṃ bhūyaḥ praṇidhāya mano hṛdi /
vīkṣamāṇo 'pi nāpaśyam avitṛpta ivāturaḥ //

20. I again concentrated my mind on my own heart (within myself) with the desire of again seeing that Form, and

looked for it, but I did not see it; being thus disappointed of my wish, I was like one stricken with some disease.