Matsyapurana 155.9

155.9

yāsyāmyahaṃ parityaktvā cātmānaṃ tapasā girim
jīvantyā nāsti me kṛtyaṃ dhūrtena paribhūtayā //

Having being thus addressed, Pârvatî leaving the neck of the Lord and with Her eyes turned red with anger and knitting Her eyebrows, said One despises others through one s own faults O Lord ! He is surely to meet with misfortunes Constant despise is the reward that I am now getting on attaining Thee after the performance of rigid austerities Śiva ! I am neither mysterious nor wicked O one with streaming hair ! you are well known to have become vicious by contact with evil things Śiva ! I am not the teeth of Pûṣâ, nor am I the eyes of Bhaga Bhagavân Âditya knows Thee well Thou art to be blamed, Thou art now causing Thy own trouble by chiding me thus due to Thine own fault Thou callest me black, but Thou art well known as very black (Mahâ-Kâla) what shall I do ? I am going to the mountains to practise austerities and will give up my life What is the use of my life under the subjugation of a cunning husband ?—3 9