Mudgalapurana 4.18.41

4.18.41

tato'haṃ nitarāṃ khinno hyubhayatraiva saṅkaṭāt |
vicārya svahite saktaḥ śamī damaparo'bhavam ||

Then I was utterly despondent due to the predicament on both sides; / reflecting and intent on my own highest good, I became quieted and devoted to self-control.