金光明最勝王經疏 6.196

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經　「爾時國大夫人寢高樓上，便於夢中見不祥相，被割兩乳芽齒墮落。得三鴿鶵，一為鷹奪、二被驚怖。地動之時夫人遂覺，心大愁惱，作如是言：『何故今時大地動，江河林樹皆搖震，日無精光如覆蔽，目瞤乳動異常時。如箭射心憂苦逼，遍身戰掉不安隱，我之所夢不祥徵，必有非常災變事。』夫人兩乳忽然流出，念此必有變怪之事。時有侍女聞外人言，求覓王子今猶未得，心大驚怖，即入宮中白夫人曰：『大家知不？外聞諸人散覓王子遍求不得。』時彼夫人聞是說已，生大憂惱悲淚盈目，至大王所白言：『大王！我聞外人作如是語：「失我最小所愛之子。」』王聞語已驚惶失所，悲哽而言：『苦哉！今日失我愛子。』即便抆淚慰喻夫人，告言：『賢首！汝勿憂慼。吾今共出求覓愛子。』王與大臣及諸人眾即共出城，各各分散隨處求覓。未久之頃，有一大臣前白王曰：『聞王子在，願勿憂愁。其最小者今猶未見。』王聞是語悲歎而言：『苦哉苦哉！失我愛子。初有子時歡喜少，後失子時憂苦多。若使我兒重壽命，縱我身亡不為苦。』夫人聞已，憂惱纏懷如被箭中，而嗟歎曰：『我之三子并侍從，俱往林中共遊賞，最小愛子獨不還，定有乖離災厄事。』次第二臣來至王所，王問臣曰：『愛子何在？』第二大臣懊惱啼泣，喉舌乾燥口不能言，竟無所答。夫人問曰：『速報小子今何在，我身熱惱遍燒然，悶亂荒迷失本心，勿使我胸今破裂。』時第二臣即以王子捨身之事具白王知。王及夫人聞其事已，不勝悲噎，望捨身處驟駕前行。詣竹林所，至彼菩薩捨身之地，見其骸骨隨處交橫，俱時投地悶絕將死，猶如猛風吹倒大樹，心迷失緒都無所知。時大臣等以水遍灑王及夫人，良久乃甦。舉手而哭，咨嗟歎曰：『禍哉愛子端嚴相，因何死苦先來逼，若我得在汝前亡，豈見如斯大苦事。』爾時夫人迷悶稍止，頭髮蓬亂兩手搥胸，宛轉于地如魚處陸、若生失子，悲泣而言：『我子誰屠割，餘骨散于地。失我所愛子，憂悲不自勝。苦哉誰殺子，致斯憂惱事，我心非金剛，云何而不破。我夢中所見，兩乳皆被割，牙齒悉墮落，今遭大苦痛。又夢三鴿鶵，一被鷹擒去，今失所愛子，惡相表非虛。』」

Sūtra: 'At that time, the great queen of the realm was sleeping in a high tower, and in a dream she saw inauspicious portents: her two breasts were cut off, and her molar teeth fell out. She obtained three dove fledglings, of which one was seized by a hawk and two were terrified. When the earth shook, the queen then awoke; her heart greatly distressed and troubled, she spoke these words: "Why does the great earth shake at this time, / rivers, forests, and trees all trembling and quaking, / the sun devoid of radiance as if veiled, / my eyelids twitching and my breasts throbbing unlike ordinary times? / As if an arrow pierced my heart, I am pressed by grief and distress; / my whole body trembles, without peace. / The inauspicious portents of my dream / surely forebode an extraordinary calamity." Milk suddenly flowed from the queen's two breasts; reflecting on this, [she knew] there must be an unnatural event. At that time, a maidservant heard outsiders saying that they were searching for the prince and had not yet found him. Greatly alarmed and frightened, she immediately entered the palace and addressed the queen, saying: "Does Your Majesty know? I heard outside that everyone has scattered to look for the prince, searching everywhere without finding him." Then, having heard this, the queen was filled with great distress and sorrow, tears filling her eyes. She went to the great king and said: "Great King! I have heard outsiders speaking like this: 'We have lost my youngest, most beloved son.'" Having heard these words, the king was alarmed and frantic, and said through choking sobs: "Alas! Today I have lost my beloved son!" He then wiped his tears, consoled the queen, and told her: "Noble Lady! Do not grieve. I shall now go out together [with the ministers] to search for our beloved son." The king, along with his ministers and the populace, immediately went out of the city, each scattering to search everywhere. Before long, a minister came forward and addressed the king, saying: "We hear the [two] princes are safe; please do not grieve. Only the youngest has not yet been seen." The king, hearing these words, sorrowfully lamented, saying: "Alas, alas! I have lost my beloved son. / When first I had a son, joy was little; / now that I lose my son, sorrow and distress are great. / If my son could regain his life, / even if I were to perish, it would not be suffering." Having heard this, the queen's heart was gripped with distress, as if struck by an arrow, and she lamented: "My three sons together with their attendants / all went to the forest to stroll and enjoy themselves; / the youngest, beloved son alone does not return— / surely there has been separation and disaster!" Next, a second minister came to the king. The king asked the minister, saying: "Where is my beloved son?" The second minister, distressed and weeping, his throat and tongue parched, was unable to speak and could make no reply at all. The queen asked, saying: "Quickly tell me where the boy is now! / My body burns all over with feverish anguish; / bewildered, disordered, and distracted, I lose my senses; / do not let my chest burst apart this moment!" Then the second minister fully informed the king of the matter of the prince casting off his body. The king and the queen, having heard this matter, were overcome with choking sorrow and drove their carriages forward with haste toward the place where he cast off his body. Coming to the bamboo forest, they reached the site where that Bodhisattva had cast off his body and saw his bones strewn across the ground. At that moment, they both threw themselves to the ground, fainting away almost to death, like great trees blown down by a violent wind, their minds bewildered and deranged, entirely senseless. Then the ministers and others sprinkled water all over the king and the queen, and after a long while they revived. Raising their hands and weeping, they sighed and lamented, saying: "What calamity! Beloved son of handsome and dignified countenance, / why did the suffering of death come upon you first? / If only I had died before you, / how could I have seen such great suffering!" At that time, the queen's faintness and bewilderment slightly abated; with dishevelled hair, beating her chest with both hands, she tossed and rolled on the ground like a fish on dry land, or [a mother beast] that has just lost its young, and weeping in grief, she said: "Who butchered my son, / leaving his bones scattered upon the ground? / Having lost my beloved son, / I am overcome with grief and sorrow. / Alas! Who killed my son, / bringing about this matter of grief and distress? / My heart is not made of diamond— / how does it not shatter? / What I saw in my dream— / both breasts being cut off / and my teeth falling out— / today I suffer this great agony. / And dreaming of three dove fledglings, / one seized away by a hawk— / now I have lost my beloved son, / the evil omens proven not to be in vain."'