大慧普覺禪師語錄 25.16

25.16

邴近扣籌室，伏蒙激發蒙滯，忽有省入。顧惟，根識暗鈍，平生學解盡落情見，一取一捨，如衣壞絮行草棘中適自纏繞，今一笑頓釋，欣幸可量，非大宗匠委曲垂慈，何以致此。自到城中，著衣喫飯，抱子弄孫，色色仍舊，既亡拘滯之情，亦不作奇特之想，其餘夙習舊障，亦稍輕微，臨別叮嚀之語，不敢忘也。重念，始得入門，而大法未明，應機接物觸事未能無礙，更望有以提誨，使卒有所至，庶無玷於法席矣。

Bing recently knocked at your consultation room, and was humbled to receive your stimulation of my dullness and blockage, so that I suddenly had an awakening. Reflecting on myself, my faculties and consciousness are dim and blunt, and all the learning and understanding of my life fell entirely into emotional views; choosing and rejecting, I was like someone clad in tattered wadding walking through brambles, only tangling myself up. Now with a single smile I am suddenly released, with joy beyond measure; had the great lineage master not condescended with such compassionate skill, how could this have come about? Since arriving in the city, wearing clothes and eating meals, holding my sons and playing with my grandsons, every single thing remains as before; having lost the feeling of attachment, I also do not form thoughts of anything extraordinary. The rest of my habitual tendencies and old hindrances have also grown somewhat lighter; your earnest parting words, I dare not forget. Reflecting again, I have only just managed to enter the gate, but the Great Dharma is not yet clear, and in responding to conditions and encountering things, when contacting affairs I am not yet able to be unobstructed. I further hope you will raise and instruct me, so that I may ultimately arrive somewhere and perhaps not bring disgrace to your Dharma assembly.