廣弘明集 28.83

28.83

大憙稽首和南。大憙精誠無感奄丁禍罰。攀號永往五內屠鱠。自咎自悼萬歿何補。慈母臨終正念不亂。繫想諸佛及本師。至乎壽盡。凡夫戀著母子恩深。嬰此長別肝心破潰。不能自任遺旨。以三十兩上金。奉別充道場功德。九月二十八日奉營安厝。終始永畢不可復希。長號懊惱無心苟存。伏度聞問。理垂哀愍。所希運心救拔。必使亡靈遊於淨土。不圖此啟臨紙崩絕。大憙和南。

Daxi bows his head and offers reverence. Daxi's utmost sincerity could not move heaven, and he has suddenly met with calamity and punishment. Crying aloud and calling out to the one departed forever, his five viscera are torn to shreds. Reproaching himself and grieving for himself, dying ten thousand times would not make amends. When my compassionate mother approached her end, her correct mindfulness was undisturbed; she fixed her thoughts upon the Buddhas and her fundamental master until her lifespan was exhausted. A worldly mortal's clinging love between mother and child is deep; encountering this eternal separation, my heart and liver are shattered. Unable to control myself, following her dying bequest, I offer thirty liang of fine gold at this farewell to serve as merit for the bodhimaṇḍa. On the twenty-eighth day of the ninth month, we respectfully arranged the interment. Beginning and end are eternally concluded, and she cannot be seen again. Wailing in bitter anguish, I have no heart to cling to life. I humbly trust that when you hear this news, your compassion will reasonably extend down to us. What I hope is that you will arouse your mind to deliver her, surely causing her departed spirit to roam in the Pure Land. I did not imagine that writing this missive, approaching the paper, I would collapse in sorrow. Daxi bows in reverence.