諸經要集 4.27

4.27

如雜寶藏經云。昔有一婦女端正殊妙。於外道法中出家修道。時人問言。顏貌如是應當在俗。何故出家。女人答言。如我今日非不端正。但以小來厭惡婬欲。今故出家。我在家時。以端正故早蒙處分。早生男兒。兒遂長大端正無比。轉覺羸損如似病者。我即問兒病之由狀。兒不肯道。為問不止。兒不獲已而語母言。我止不道恐命不全。正欲具道無顏之甚。即語母言。我欲得母以私情欲。以不得故。是以病耳。母即語言。自古已來何有此事。復自念言。我若不從兒或能死。今寧違理以存兒命。即便喚兒欲從其意。兒將上床地即劈裂。我子即時生身陷入地獄。我即驚怖以手挽兒。捉得兒髮。而我兒髮。今日猶故在我懷中。感切是事。是故出家。

As the *Zabaozang jing* states: In the past there was a woman who was extraordinarily upright and beautiful. She went forth and cultivated the Way in the teaching of an external tradition. People of that time asked her, saying: "With a countenance such as this, you ought to remain in the secular life. For what reason did you go forth?" The woman replied, saying: "In my present state, it is not that I am not beautiful, but because from childhood I have detested carnal lust, I have now gone forth. When I was at home, because of my beauty, I was married early and gave birth to a boy early. The boy subsequently grew up to be incomparably handsome. Gradually, he was seen to become emaciated and frail, like one who was sick. I immediately asked my son about the cause and condition of his sickness. The son refused to speak. Because I questioned him incessantly, having no choice, the son spoke to his mother, saying: 'If I desist and do not speak, I fear my life will not be preserved; yet if I wish to explain it fully, it is exceedingly shameful.' He then said to his mother: 'I desire to have mother for my private lustful passions. Because I cannot have [you], for this reason I am sick.' The mother then said to him: 'Since ancient times, how could there be such a matter?' She again thought to herself: 'If I do not comply, my son might die. Now I would rather violate principle in order to preserve my son's life.' Thereupon she called her son, intending to comply with his desire. As the son was about to mount the bed, the earth suddenly split open, and my son sank alive into hell. I was immediately terrified and pulled my son with my hand, catching hold of my son's hair. And my son's hair is today still held in my bosom. Deeply moved and pained by this matter, I therefore went forth."