Muntakhab al-tawarikh 160.5

160.5

But I will not dilate further on this subject, and will commit it to the care of the All-Wise God who knows the truth, and passing to my ulterior (outward) object, will bring it to your consideration, informing you that for a long time I endured great grief and sorrow from hearing of the death of that repository of humanity, inseparably connected with liberality, him who had acquired all perfections, Mīrzā Nizāmu-d-dīn Ahmad, and from the passing away of all the excellence of that phoenix of the age and of his love and faithful affection for you, my lord! 'Verily we are God's, and to Him do we return!' What can I say, and to whom can I confide these griefs, which assail me incessantly and repeatedly? At all events we are awaiting our own death, and we have no resource but the favour of the bountiful God. My tongue is now ever chanting this prayer, 'O God have mercy upon us behold the sweet of our sorrows and the multitude of our groans! May the physician be disappointed of us and may our friends weep for us! O God, have mercy upon us when the earth surrounds us and our friends leave us! Scatter Thy favours among us and may the wind cease to blow upon us!' I hope that our end will be good and that we shall preserve our faith unblemished. Since the bearer of this letter was in great haste to depart I have written it hurriedly at night and have not been able to explain one thousandth part of the desire which I have towards your service.