Muntakhab al-tawarikh 26.6

26.6

What power have you to decide between the companions of the Prophet, you who from foolishness like a blind man, seek the softness of ermine from the stoat.
It were better that the skirt of the time was freed by skilful management, from the impurity of those abomination-working sects before that this sound reaches their ears What brought you into hell?
Oh Lord! although for a long time my heart has been afflicted by the darlings of Chigil, and held fast by the rosy-cheeks of Yamak
towards their line bearing copies of the Qur’an fixed to the heads of their lances. “Let the blood of the Faithful cease to flow” they cried “let the Book of God decide between us.”
‘Ali’s soldiers thereupon turned upon him headed by certain men whom Ash-Shahrastani names, and insisted upon ‘Ali recalling Malik Al-Ashtar from fighting against the Moslims “or” said they “we will assuredly deal with you as we dealt with ‘Usman” and insisted upon the matter in dispute between ‘Ali and Mu'awia being settled by arbitration.
Yet in the beginning of the year and day of my age (51), after the year kha and nun and he (655 H.), thanks be to God that the bird of my ambition has burst the bonds of this net and gone free.
I have washed my hands of the one, and have freed my foot from the other, springing out of both snares like the clay pellets from a pea-shooter.
At thy footstool henceforth my constant cry is "I repent," my supplication is to thee, my secret thoughts and open dealings are with thee.