Muntakhab al-tawarikh 78.4.7

78.4.7

In the course of the year succeeding these events utter confusion seized my [usually] placid mind, and mundane grief, from which it was fleeing, suddenly came on me with grim mirth, and compassed my path. Then the inner meaning of the words “Cast thyself in it upon me” became evident and the words of my late father, which he used often to repeat, were verified, viz., “This thy clamour and confusion endures as long as I am in the bonds of life ; but, when I am no more, they will see how unshackled thou wilt live, and trample upon the world and all that therein is:” — “The world is a house of mourning : what is hidden? A sorrow-stricken one like myself : what is certain ? Mourning became two, my sorrow became double : O help ! For my mourning is become double. It is unjust that there should be two scars on such an one as me ! One light is enough for one candle-stick, One head cannot wear two veils, One breast cannot bear two burdens.”