Gopalacampu 1.19.4

1.19.4

[1] atha prabhāta-kathāyāṃ snigdhakaṇṭha uvāca-tad evam ekādaśī-kathā kathitā | tāṃ ca tithim aśithilitayā prathita-manorathāṃ pratītya nityavad eva vraja-devaḥ samyag ullāsam upovāsa | [2] kintu pāraṇa-kāraṇam avaśīrṇam eva dvādaśīm avaśiṣṭām avadhāya bahv-avaśiṣṭāyām api rajanyāṃ viśiṣṭa-vidhi-balataḥ snānādi-kalanāya kalindīṃ praviṣṭavān | praviśya ca yathā-yatham atrasnuḥ sasnau | snātvā cāntar eva vāriṇaḥ śrī-nārāyaṇam ekāyanatayā sāgama-niṣṭham upatiṣṭhamānaḥ suṣṭhu dhyātum ārabdhavān | tatra cāyaṃ janmata eva tan-mayatayā san-matir āsīt | tādṛśa-nandana-lābhānandatas tu tatrāpy atiśayaṃ vindati sma | tataś ca tad-vidha-dhyānāvadhānataḥ samādhim anavadhim āpannavantaṃ taṃ sarvataḥ pracarantaḥ
pracetasaś carāḥ sahasā samāsadya sadyaḥ svīya-svāmi-nivāsaṃ praty eva pravāsayāmāsuḥ | eṣa nivāsa-viśeṣaś ca tasya jala-stambha-vidyālambhitāra-bhavān svata eva bhāsvān bhāsvat-kanyā-hrada-stha-vivarasyādhaḥ-pradeśe sadeśa eva rasā-vivara-deśe niveśam āsīdati | na ca kṛṣṇa-prabhāvatā vidita-mahitānubhāvasya tasya tathānayanaṃ nayavatāṃ na sambhāvanīyam | sa hi nirantaram idaṃ cintayati-yad asya mad-bhāgya-jātataḥ sañjātasya sutasya yathottara-prathamāna-mānatayā parama-prema-harṣadam utkarṣaṃ śaśvad eva paśyāma iti | tatas tad evāsakṛd eva yogam āpayituṃ tal-līlāyām upayoga-māyātāyā yogamāyāyā eva samayās ta ete pūtanā-gamanādivat | [3] atha tathāveśinam eva vrajeśānaṃ yadā pāśinaḥ puratas tad-ādeśābhiniveśinas te sañcāritavantas,
tadā tad-ākārata eva taṃ nirdhārayan punaś ca nārāyaṇa-dhāraṇāvantam avadhārayann ayam atidarādarābhyāṃ kṛta-divya-vastrādi-praśastitayā varaśayyām evādhiśāyayāmāsa | [4] svayaṃ ca pitṛ-haraṇāsahiṣṇu-kṛṣṇāgamanam anantaram eva manvānaḥ sudūra-dṛṣṭi-hetuṃ pūr-dvāram adhitiṣṭhann ūrdhvam eva tiṣṭhati sma | [5] athātratyaṃ vṛttam anuvṛttyatām | [6] yadā khalu kṛṣṇasya tātaḥ kṛṣṇā-pāthasi tan-nāthavattā-mātra-dhanānāṃ janānām adṛśyatām avāpa, tadā diśi diśi kāndiśīkās te jalam avagāhya tad-aprāptitas tad-bāhyaṃ pradeśam āgatāḥ | āgamya ca vikrośanta eva vrajam abhigacchantaḥ, kṛṣṇa-rāmāgraṇyas tān vraja-grāmaṇyaḥ kalitāsukhān svābhimukhān eva lebhire | [7] tatra ca vṛtte śruta-mātre
parama-duḥkha-pātre sarvataḥ kṛta-mano-virāmau kṛṣṇa-rāmau vikramya sarvam atikramya, paramotkaṇṭhita-matyā jhaṭiti-gatyā pṛthivīm api ghaṭṭayantau, tam eva ghaṭṭam āṭatuḥ | tatra ca kṛṣṇaḥ samagra-vyagram agrajam āliṅgan riṅgad-asram evedam aśrāvayat-bhrātar, mātaram akātaratayābhirakṣya sarva eva rakṣaṇīyāḥ, yāvad ahaṃ pitaram ānīya sukha-vitaraṃ karavāṇi | mātary atrāgatāyāṃ tu na kathañcid api paryāptiṃ paryāpayituṃ śakṣyāmīti | [8] tad evaṃ kṛta-saṃvāda-mātraḥ pitaram ānetuṃ nirmita-yātraḥ saṃhanana-bṛṃhita-siṃha-lajjaḥ saṃhita-parikara-sajjaḥ pātāla-vivara-dvāra-pātraṃ sarit-pātram anu mamajja | [9] anantaraṃ ca, vrajeśvarī-pradhānāḥ sarva eva tatra caraṇa-mātram ādadhānā rāmam ekam avadhānāḥ
kṛṣṇam anusandadhānāḥ papracchuḥ-kva nu yātas tavānujātaḥ? iti | [10] sa tu tāṃ vrajendrasudṛśaṃ visadṛśadṛśaṃ parāmṛśann uvāca-mātar, na kātaratām āyāhi | sa tu sampraty eva janakam ādāya svajanasukhaṃ janayi-ṣyati iti | [11] atha svamātaram uvāca-hanta, tvam api kathaṃ māṃ hantāsi? mayi viśvāsataḥ śvāsamātraviśiṣṭām etāṃ pāhi | [12] tataś ca sarva evānarvāñcaḥ kāliyadamanaprakramatas tadvacanam aklamapramam eva manvānās tāṃ viśramayāmāsuḥ | kintu,

"Is this a dream? Is it waking? Or is it a faint, or madness?"
—thus the people could not repeatedly make sense of their intellect concerning him;
but of them, whose hearts were veiled in longing, this lament arose:
"Alas, alas, O king of Vraja! Alas, woe, alas, alas, O Śrī Kṛṣṇa, where are you, O Lord?" ||1