Gopalacampu 1.31.32

1.31.32

[21] iti kṣaṇaṃ bāṣpāyamāṇekṣaṇatayā tūṣṇīm āsīt | punaś ca tathā tathā bhāvana-vrāte jāte-hanta hanta katham aham aho klībamānaḥ punaḥ śoka-prapañcam añcāmi yataḥ samprati bhiduraṃ cittaṃ na vidūratāṃ vindeta iti vicintayati sma |

[21] Thus, for a moment, he remained silent, his eyes welling with tears. And again, as such a host of thoughts arose, he reflected: “Alas, alas! How is it that I, acting like a coward, am once again entering into an elaboration of sorrow, lest my fragile heart should presently become utterly desolate?”