Rasarnavasudhakara 2.523

2.523

dullaha-jaṇāṇurāo lajjā guruī parabbaso appā |
pia-sahi visamaṃ pemmaṃ maraṇaṃ saraṇaṃ nu varam ekkaṃ ||

"Love for a person hard to attain; shame is heavy; myself dependent on others; / dear friend, love is perverse; death alone indeed is the best refuge."

2.523.p1

(ra.ā. 2.1)

2.523.p2

[durlabha-janānurāgo lajjā gurvī para-vaśa ātmā |
priya-sakhi viṣamaṃ prema maraṇaṃ śaraṇaṃ nu varam ekam ||]

[Love for a person hard to attain; shame is heavy; myself dependent on others; / dear friend, love is perverse; death alone indeed is the best refuge.]

2.523.p3

ity atra pūrvānurāgasyābhāsatva-prasaṅga iti ced ucyate | abhāvo hi trividhaḥ prāg-abhāvo' tyantābhāvaḥ pradhvaṃsābhāvaś ceti | tatra prāg-abhāve darśanādi-kāraṇeṣu sambhāviteṣu rāgotpatti-sambhāvanayā nābhāsatvam | itarayos tu kāraṇa-sad-bhāve' pi rāgānutpatter ābhāsatvam eva | anye tu striyā eva rāgābhāve rasasyābhāsatvaṃ pratijānate | na tad upapadyate | puruṣe' pi rāgābhāve rasasyānāsvādanīyatvāt | yathā-

If it is objected that here there would follow the consequence of the first awakening of love being a semblance [of sentiment], we reply: Absence is indeed threefold—prior absence, absolute absence, and destructional absence. Among these, in the case of prior absence, because the arising of love is expected once the causes like seeing [the beloved] are possible, there is no semblance [of sentiment]. But in the other two, even when the causes are present, because love does not arise, it is indeed a semblance. Others, however, assert that sentiment is a semblance only when love is absent in the woman. That is not tenable; for even when love is absent in the man, the sentiment cannot be savoured. As in: