Shikshasamuccaya 236

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avasādo * apy an-artha etad-varjanaṃ ca ratna-meghe dṛṣṭaṃ | iha bodhi-satvo na + evaṃ cittam utpādayati | duṣ-prāpā bodhir manuṣya-bhūtena satā | idaṃ ca me vīryaṃ parīttaṃ ca ku-sīdo * ahaṃ bodhiś ca + ādīpta-śiraś-caila-upamena bahūn kalpān | bahūni kalpa-śatāni bahūni kalpa-sahasrāṇi samudānetavyā | tan na + aham utsahae īdṛśaṃ bhāram udvoḍhuṃ ||

Despondency is also a disadvantage, and its avoidance is seen in the Ratnamegha: “Here, a bodhisattva does not generate such a thought: ‘Awakening is difficult to attain by one who is a human being; and this vigor of mine is meager, and I am lazy, while awakening is to be acquired through many aeons, many hundreds of aeons, many thousands of aeons, like one whose head clothes are on fire. Therefore, I am not capable of bearing such a burden.’”