大方便佛報恩經 2.38

2.38

「爾時大王即入宮中，報諸夫人：『而我今者共汝等別。』時諸夫人聞王語已，心驚毛竪，莫知所由，微聲問王：『王欲何去？』王言：『今者我身欲剜作千燈供養大師。』時諸夫人聞王語已，夗轉躃地，舉聲大哭，悶絕吐逆，良久穌息，報大王言：『天下所重莫若己身，恭敬尊重，隨時將養，懼畏不適。今者云何毀害捐棄？王是智人，而於今日，如似顛狂，鬼魅所著耶？』王言：『不也。』『若不爾者，何緣如是，作此苦惱，供養是婆羅門，何所為耶？』王報夫人：『欲求佛法，為一切眾生。』『若為一切眾生，今日云何便見孤棄？』王報諸夫人言：『天下恩愛，皆當別離，是故吾今以身供養。欲為汝等及一切眾生，於大闇室燃大智燈，照汝生死無明黑闇，斷眾累結，生死之患，超度眾難，得至涅槃故。汝等諸人，今者云何違逆我心？』時諸夫人聞王語已，默然不對，心悲噢噎，舉聲大哭，自拔頭髮，抓摑面目，復發聲言：『我等薄相，生亡我所。』

"Then the great king went into the palace and said to his consorts: 'I must now part with you all.' When the consorts heard the king's words, their hearts were terrified and their hair stood on end, not knowing the cause. In a faint voice, they asked the king: 'Where does the king wish to go?' The king said: 'Now, I wish to have my body gouged to make a thousand lamps to make an offering to the great master.' When the consorts heard the king's words, they rolled on the ground, wept aloud, fell into swoons, and vomited. After a long while, they revived, and said to the great king: 'Of all that is under heaven, nothing is more valued than one's own body. It is revered, honored, nurtured according to the seasons, with dread of its being unwell. Why now do you harm and discard it? The king is a man of wisdom, yet today you are like one deranged or possessed by demonic spirits!' The king said: 'It is not so.' 'If it is not so, for what reason do you undergo such suffering to make an offering to this brāhmaṇa? What is this for?' The king replied to the consorts: 'I wish to seek the Buddha-Dharma for the sake of all sentient beings.' 'If it is for the sake of all sentient beings, why today do you forsake us and leave us destitute?' The king replied to the consorts: 'All worldly love and affection must end in parting. Therefore, I now offer my body, wishing for you and all sentient beings to ignite the great lamp of wisdom in the great dark chamber, illuminating your dark ignorance of birth and death, severing the bond of fetters and the calamity of birth and death, transcending all distress, and attaining nirvāṇa. Why do you people now oppose my mind?' When the consorts heard the king's words, they remained silent and did not reply. With hearts grieving and choked with tears, they wept aloud, tore out their hair, scratched their faces, and cried out again: 'We of meager fortune are losing our refuge in our lifetime!'