Gita Govinda 19.2

19.2

nirāśayādhikaṃ vilalāpeti bhāvaḥ |
vividhavilāpameva gītena kathayati— kathiteti | gītasyāsya gauḍamālavarāgaḥ pratimaṭhatālaḥ | gītārthastu iha vipine kaṃ janaṃ yāmi śaraṇam | yadvā kaṃ jalamagniṃ ca yamaṃ śaraṇaṃ yāmi | tena vinā jalapraveśamagnipraveśaṃ yamagṛhaṃ yāmītyarthaḥ | kīdṛśī | sakhījanānāṃ vacanena vañcitā pratāritā | mayā harirānīyata eveti sakhījanena pratāritetyarthaḥ | sakhyo'pyevaṃ pratārikāstadā ko'nyo viśvāsapātraṃ bhavediti bhāvaḥ | 'ko brahmātmānilārkeṣu śamane sarvanāmni ca | pāvake ca mayūre ca mukhaśīrṣajaleṣu kam ||' iti viśvaḥ | 'śaraṇaṃ gṛharakṣitroḥ' ityamaraḥ | sakhīvacanamevāha—kathiteti | kathitasamaye'pi sakhyagre svayameva kathito yaḥ samayaḥ kālo'sminnavasare mayā saṅketasthalamāgantavyamiti | yadvā | sakhyā madagre yaḥ samayaḥ kathitastadapi vanaṃ saṅketanikuñjaṃ na yayau na gatavān | idamārūḍhameva me yauvanaṃ tāruṇyamamalarūpamapi nirmalasaundaryamapi viphalam | pūrve tadāgamanapratyāśayā sthitaṃ saṃpratyavadhilaṅghane niravadhi(?) duḥkho'pi bhogo'samarthaḥ | śarīraṃ lakṣyāmyeva, mama yauvanaṃ yāsyatīti bhāvaḥ |
mama maraṇameva
punaḥ kīdṛśī | vicaladiti | vicaladbhirśvaścalairalakaiścūrṇakuntalairlalito manohara ānanacandro yasyāḥ sā | lālityaṃ cālakānāṃ kalaṅkasādṛśyānmukhe calatkalaṅkatvaṃ candramasaḥ pratīyate | punaḥ kīdṛśī | tasya kṛṣṇasyādharapānarabhasaḥ | tena kṛtā cakṣurnimīlanenāviṣkṛtatandrā ratisukhānubhavajanitā nidrā yayā sā |